last post of the year

failed recollections of a fool

this year has been really turbulent for me.
lots of downs, a few ups.

the downs, let's see
ties that have been tying me down are finally, totally severed(it was really painful but it must be done or i'll never go anywhere).
i've stilled my heart and made myself face the facts that i should give up as eventually the situation would never turn out favorably. i'll lose things i currently possess and treasure now if i didn't(it means a hell lot to me and i don't wanna lose it).
i've woken up and sorta grasped a little of what this whole ballgame called life is all about. i've taken to treading carefully now and am only investing effort in things i deem worthwhile. let's just say once bitten, twice shy shall we?
oh to be naive and easily contented again. hmmm do i? looks like a matrix red/blue pill situation here.
and of cos, the thrice mu***af**king damned accidents. f**king miss riding yakkul lots.
while we're at the downs, anyone who has a heart, please contribute in any way you can to the tsunami victims. they really need our help.

ah well, on the upside.
i've spread my wings a little and got myself a bike license and a bike that i love to ride.i love the feeling of the wind in my face and how yakkul responds accordingly to my every subtle touch.
i've taken up diving and dive whenever time and budget permits. i am totally enamoured by the underwater world. it's just so lovely. it's hard to put in words the beauty and the serenity one experiences underwater. a soothing balm for this mad world that we live in.
pursuing my dream and studying what i want despite going against the grain of what society expects me to do. at least if i fail in it later in life, i can daresay i have at least tried and not live in doubt my whole life, wondering if i would have been happier if i had made the choice.
new true friends are always a joy. i'm really glad to have made a friend in natalie. she's so totally one of us(where have you been all this while? the north pole?). you're a great addition to the fellowship of the lim, sister.
and lastly, the love and fellowship of those who really care for and matter to me(near and far). not gonna name people. i believe you few people oughta know who you are. i would never have made it through the year mostly sane without you guys.

Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find they're touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Love, in fear, in hate

Down
Down

James
Sit Down

let's close the final chapter of the year for this blog then.
happy new year.
au lang syne and all that jazz.
to fresh beginnings and better endings.